Today could turn out strange based on the dream that awoke me. Who knows now what I'll accomplish today. Looks like I need to change a few goals on my always-present check-off list. You see, my last conscious dream thought at 4:00 am was: I need to kill Monica.
Yes, that kind of thought is bound to wake up anyone, especially harmless me who has never killed anyone before--and no, I haven't taken up naming spiders, slugs of houseplants.
I know Monica--her name, face, her husband, where she works, where she banks, etc. I actually admire her. I know her background, and her future--or so I thought. Now she's on the endangered list? Okay, so I might need (odd word, need) to killer her? How? More importantly, why does she deserve death?
Okay, I admit, I've thought about killing her before. In fact, I've considered a few ways. Each time I've decided I haven't got the guts. Or a powerful enough motive. Now to wake up thinking I should follow through?!
Scary!
Confession time: I've killed people before. No shock there, actually. But in the past I've always been subtle and orchestrated events so death seemed natural. A heartbreaking loss, yes, but I've done it in ways that keep my hands and conscience clean. With Monica, that approach won't work. I'll wind up guilty as sin and regret it. Miss her, even. Natalie's a different story. Actually, she's in the same story. I'll kill her instead.
Maybe.
Oh, I forgot one important detail: If I can't find an agent who falls in love with the first volume, who successfully sells it to a publisher, then why bother killing Natalie in volume 3?
Great! Problem solved. I can stop plotting murder and go running!
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
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